Another sleepless night has me up earlier than I wanted. It seems as if the times I need extra sleep, or just want to relax for a busy upcoming week, are the times I have trouble getting a good night’s rest.
Upon waking, I come down to a quiet house and peer out the windows as I pull the curtains back into their brass holders. Drizzle. The fall colors pop as I glance at a tree in my neighborhood.
Sometimes I just don’t want the weekend to be over! I work hard all week, and look forward to family time and relaxation. In addition to catching up on things around the house, I want to complete my ever-growing to-do list. Often, my weekends are packed with stuff to do, so my idea of how I want to spend my time never actually happens.
Even when things don’t go as planned, I’m usually good just knowing I have some quality time around my husband and kids. I try to just roll with it, but lately I find myself super irritated. I don’t want to do whatever new task pops up in front of me. I want to do what I have on my schedule. I’m being selfish and bratty and honestly, I kinda don’t care. I’m sure that sounds horrible but it’s the truth.
I want to make a fire in our fire pit out back, pull up a chair, grab some hot chocolate and just sit. I want to stare at the flames and feel the warmth of the fire spread over me. Allowing my mind to wander and rest and not make a choice or big girl decision is so appealing right about now! Instead, I put on a happy, albeit it fake, smile and trudge along handling whatever it is that I now have to do.
I’m not sure if it is the change in seasons, bringing with it less sunlight and outdoor time, or if it’s just my stinkin’ thinkin’ that has me so bummed. I’m pretty sure it’s the latter! Remembering to count my blessings seems to be the best way to pull myself out of the funk I’m in. Wallowing in self-pity is so ugly and not at all the way to be a positive person. Taking time to reflect on what really matters to me will give me a much better perspective on things, while helping me focus on all that is right in my life.
I am blessed with a loving, caring, healthy family. I have wonderful friends and a job that I love. We have a roof over our heads and plenty to eat. I am able to get up each day and walk, talk, hear, see, smell and taste and I am so thankful for all that God has given me. I know what is truly important in life and I feel silly complaining at all because I certainly have no reason to.
This reminds me of a great quote I heard years ago from my brother during a time when I was suffering a great loss and seemed unable to see how things would ever get better. He told me, “Tam, everyone has a pity party now and then. Just remember when you sit on the pity pot, do your business, flush and wash your hands, and just keep going!” Great advice I think, don’t you?
With that reminder, I am getting up right now, and preparing my mind for the next task I have to tackle. I have a smile on my face and joy in my heart as I realize that life is too short to complain and get grumpy. Thanks for listening, and can I ask: how do you get motivated to do things you really don’t want to do?