All of it.
It’s hard, isn’t it, trying to do it all? It’s so challenging to balance this thing called life. There are so many needs and seemingly not enough of you to go around. I feel your ache. I understand your pain.
You desire to be that wife, who is able to juggle all her responsibilities with ease. I see you. You’re trying so hard, and you want it all to work out and go well. Wanting to be enough for your husband while your heart is silently breaking in two...
That situation with your kids? I know. You long to make their lives better, and their heartaches and struggles minimal. You want to be a part of every single moment and event in their lives to soak up each experience, but in reality you simply can’t. You want to make sure they comprehend just how much you’ve prayed for them; and the tears shed by you could float a ship. Inside you are wrestling with how to allow them to grow and work things out on their own, while still offering guidance along the way. Maybe you really want to decide for them, and do the hard tasks to make it easier, but instead you put on a strong, resilient face, enabling them to face their own circumstances with grace and courage.
At times I feel exactly like you may be feeling right now. I want to crawl into a quiet spot and just stop All.Of.The.Things. I don’t want to think, decide, predict, figure out, plan, console, serve or care. Decision making is not on my list of fun things to do today. Or any day!
Are you feeling empty, like a box of cereal that’s been dumped out onto the floor? Some days there truly is just nothing left to give. You are running on empty, yet somehow, you find a way to do what is necessary to get things done. How to you find the strength to do it?
For me, I rise early in the morning before anyone else is awake. I begin by thanking God for another day. I make a cup of tea, read my devotions and pray for my family and friends. I choose to set my mind in a grateful, thankful mode for the day before the many distracting tasks take over. If you’re anything like me, you have no less than 1,037 things scrolling through your mind at any given moment. I’ve got to take my thoughts captive and not allow any worries or stressors to take over in order to make the best of each day!
With so many people needing me, it can be challenging not to get caught up in being exhausted and a little resentful. Making the time to reflect on my blessings helps me refocus. It humbles me, filling me with happiness to be surrounded by loving people in my life. All that I face and experience is part of my life’s plan, so I know there is a purpose behind every struggle, joy, victory and defeat.
When you can take a moment to think about what is good in your life, the difficulties tend to diminish, allowing you to stand tall and face whatever comes your way. I’m cheering you on, and want you to be encouraged to keep moving forward. This too shall pass, and for each difficult moment, there are dozens of blessed events just waiting for you to enjoy!